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anemoi2012-06-13 01:09 am
trustycrowbar) wrote in anemoi2012-06-13 01:09 am
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Undetermination
Well, it seems Ky was right.
There's no reason in keeping it secret now. I worked for about two years at a classified, government-contracted research facility in the middle of the New Mexico desert. Black Mesa. Seems it's no coincidence that I started conducting anemoi research here so quickly; that's almost exactly what I was up to over there too! Anomalous materials research! It's almost as though I walked right out of that lab, and into this one!
Now I'm starting to wonder... is that it? Is this really ALL I have to remember? 'Cuz it could be. Those monsters I recognize could've just been escaped experiments. Everything ties together. I even threw more Anemoi into the refraction-coding analyzer to make sure and all I get are a little things, minutia, friends, co-workers, locker combination, spectroscopy settings, how many times I fried the microwave in the break room, the history of the company, stupid stories about Aperture and the stunts they used to pull before they... well... nothing huge and important, anyway.
I guess I could live with this... It'd be a relief to not have anything else to remember.
[It doesn't look like a relief. In fact he seems to be staring into the far distance more than the camera. Something about this is still not sitting right with him, and it shows.]
[2% on life at Black Mesa, 1% on general lore and propaganda about Aperture Science, 1% on friends and colleagues.]
There's no reason in keeping it secret now. I worked for about two years at a classified, government-contracted research facility in the middle of the New Mexico desert. Black Mesa. Seems it's no coincidence that I started conducting anemoi research here so quickly; that's almost exactly what I was up to over there too! Anomalous materials research! It's almost as though I walked right out of that lab, and into this one!
Now I'm starting to wonder... is that it? Is this really ALL I have to remember? 'Cuz it could be. Those monsters I recognize could've just been escaped experiments. Everything ties together. I even threw more Anemoi into the refraction-coding analyzer to make sure and all I get are a little things, minutia, friends, co-workers, locker combination, spectroscopy settings, how many times I fried the microwave in the break room, the history of the company, stupid stories about Aperture and the stunts they used to pull before they... well... nothing huge and important, anyway.
I guess I could live with this... It'd be a relief to not have anything else to remember.
[It doesn't look like a relief. In fact he seems to be staring into the far distance more than the camera. Something about this is still not sitting right with him, and it shows.]
[2% on life at Black Mesa, 1% on general lore and propaganda about Aperture Science, 1% on friends and colleagues.]
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[fuuuuuck yooooouuuuuuuuu]
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I wouldn't say this is a good thing. It's watertight, it covers everything! It's sufficient. But it just doesn't FEEL sufficient, do you know what I mean?
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yoooooouuuuuuuu]
Not really. I don't remember enough to make sense of anything, so I don't exactly get what "sufficient" is supposed to mean.
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Give it time, Rex. Think of it this way; I just lived a more boring life, that's all.
[That's kind of the thing. Yeah, all he's remembered is lab-monkey-get-coffee, lab-monkey-do-tests, lab-monkey-shoot-genetic-freak-escaped-experiments, and two months ago he'd be fine with that, but there had to be more to it--to HIM--than that! There had to!]
[But he can't articulate this very well. In fact the best he can do is:]
Don't worry.