[voice]

[planet_rin]

I got a bunch of paintings. Apparently I painted them. Don't remember.

I get a weird sense of vertigo looking at these. My mind created these, but I don't feel any personal connection to them. They were painted by someone else - that other person named Rin Tezuka whose memories I keep getting. Two strangers separated by time and memory. I look at my old paintings and I'm suddenly weirdly aware of how huge that gulf is. I don't think I'll ever be able to cross it, even if I remember everything. Maybe it's better if I don't remember anything at all.

I wonder what I should do with these.

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[wontdieifkilled]

Why not keep them?

[mokomanjuu]

Even if there's another Rin, is it really good for Rin to forget all about the other Rin forever?

[planet_rin]

I might. I feel weird having them in my room, though, because I keep looking at them.

[nomen_est_numen]

"Why on earth would you decide you don't want to remember anything?"

[life_is_megas_wonderful]

Maybe you could give them to friends! Then they could save your art, and if you decide you want them back they can give them back to you! Otherwise, you're giving them the gift of art, and that's a nice gift, donchya think?

[planet_rin]

"It's like when you look in the mirror and don't look like you thought you did, and you want to go back to your old mental image but it's too late."

"Does that make sense? I'm not good at explaining things."

[planet_rin]

This is a good idea. Do you want a painting?

[wontdieifkilled]

I guess you could hang them up in the main room in your apartment, but will you mind if people ask questions about them?

[planet_rin]

I don't know. Nobody's ever asked me about them.

[planet_rin]

Maybe. I'd ask, but I can't hear her replies.

[wontdieifkilled]

But you only just got them back now, right? Then they wouldn't have had the chance.

[planet_rin]

This is true.

Tsuruya said I should give them to people. I might do that instead.

[life_is_megas_wonderful]

Ooh! If you're offering, sure! It'd really spruce the place up! It's been a little empty feeling in here since Kat-Kat left anyway.

[planet_rin]

I need to figure out which one is for you. Who's Kat-Kat?

[wontdieifkilled]

You could do that, but I think you should keep at least one painting for yourself.

[planet_rin]

Maybe. I'm trying to do a new one but painting is still hard.

[wontdieifkilled]

That's okay. I don't know much about art, but my gut tells me that forcing it is a bad thing.

[nomen_est_numen]

"I... think so. I know I didn't think of myself as a warrior but apparently I am one. It may only be a little similar, but I think I know what you mean."

[planet_rin]

"Remembering feels like somebody else telling me who I am."

[nomen_est_numen]

"..."

"You know, I never thought of it like that..."

Now Shen is feeling existential.

[life_is_megas_wonderful]

She was my first roomie! Really super smart! But she did that weird disappearing thing a lotta folks around here do. So I've been by myself for a while.

[planet_rin]

She has that effect on people. "Besides, making memories is easy. I'm doing it right now."

[planet_rin]

I see.

What are you thoughts on faces?

[life_is_megas_wonderful]

I love 'em! Helps tell people apart! Hahahahahaha!

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[overwinters]

So.. you're saying you would rather stay as you are right now? Even without any memories from before this place?