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[planet_rin]

[More sky footage. Video posts from Rin are like a screensaver.]

Painting hard. I spend all day trying, and it didn't work. I remember how to paint, but not how I paint. I just keep looking and thinking and nothing comes out.

You know how they say that all you need to do to carve a sculpture of an elephant is cut out all the stone that isn't elephant? You can't do that with painting. It's addition, not subtraction. Which is supposed to be harder, addition or subtraction? I'm not very good at math.

Not sure how I feel about remembering things. It all feels fake, like it happened to someone else. And it did, really. It happened to past me, who is a different person from present me. I think. I don't really know who present me is, so I could be wrong.

I'm basically just saying whatever comes to mind at this point, and hoping that I happen to say something insightful, but I don't think it's working. If I don't stop, I'll probably subconsciously reveal some kind of embarrassing secret, except that I don't remember any of those, so I guess I can't do that, either.

I wonder why nobody else comes up here. It's very relaxing.

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[faithful_kitsune]

*Speaking of things that seem fake, there's a woman coming onto the roof. A woman with nine tails, some wet laundry, and a length of rope.*

Oh, pardon me! I did not realize there was someone up here.

[planet_rin]

[Rin is lying on her back, staring at passing clouds. She looks vaguely over to the fox lady as she speaks up.]

I do not have a reservation. Not for the entire roof.

[faithful_kitsune]

Fair enough.

*She goes to set up the clothesline.*

You are a resident here as well? I am fairly new, I am afraid.

[planet_rin]

New people are usually very small, aren't they?

[faithful_kitsune]

Eh? I am afraid I do not follow.

[planet_rin]

Babies. Babies are new people.

[faithful_kitsune]

...Oh! Oh, of course. I see now. No, that was not exactly what I meant. I meant I am new to this location.

[planet_rin]

Oh. Me too.

[faithful_kitsune]

Then we are in a similar situation. I am Ran. That is all I remember of my name, although I feel the rest of it is important.

[planet_rin]

My name is Rin. It's a good thing we don't look even slightly similar, because Ran is the second most similar name to mine I've heard.

[faithful_kitsune]

*Ran rolls these words around in her head for a moment.*

So you are saying there is another individual here whose name is also Rin, I am assuming? Or Rhynn, perhaps?

[planet_rin]

Yes, another Rin. That reminds me, I need to figure out which one of us is older.

[faithful_kitsune]

Ah, to figure out which is the elder to defer to, right?

[planet_rin]

I think it's more to figure out which one of us is "Rin" and which one of us is "the other Rin".

[has_a_blog]

Where is "here"?

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[planet_rin]

[Thoughtful pause.]

I guess anywhere can be "here". Other places were "here" in the past, and other ones will be "here" in the future, and not many of them are the same as the here and now. And even then, "here" is relative - what's "here" for me and what's "here" for you are totally different.

So I guess, when it comes down to it, "Where" isn't "here", because it isn't a place at all. It's a state of being.

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[planet_rin]

Good question. It was very deep.

[has_a_blog]

Er, no I meant where are you now where it's very relaxing.

[planet_rin]

Oh. The roof.

[has_a_blog]

Oh. Be careful then, that's where I keep my slime monster portal.

[planet_rin]

Is that what that thing is? I thought it was a telescope or something.

[has_a_blog]

I'm not actually sure what it is.

[planet_rin]

I thought you said it was a slime portal.

[has_a_blog]

Yeah, but that's probably not actually what it is.

[planet_rin]

Well, hopefully it will leave me alone.

[has_a_blog]

Good luck with that.

[mokomanjuu]

A lot of things happened to Mokona in the past, but she's still the same Mokona. Mokona is different today, but she's always Mokona.

...Unless Rin is talking about clones. That would be something way different!

[planet_rin]

I don't even really feel like I'm the same person I was yesterday.

[mokomanjuu]

That's really fast! What's different about Rin today?

[planet_rin]

I'm a little taller, my hair is a little longer, I woke up a litte earlier. I'm a little bit more used to having amnesia and a little bit more used to doing stuff with my feet.

[mokomanjuu]

So being a way different Rin happens slowly, huh?

[planet_rin]

Compared to what?

[mokomanjuu]

Changing into a different you really fast, like boom! [Mokona manages to snap her fingers despite not actually having fingers. Must be magic!]

Something big happens, like losing all your memories or making a big decision.

[rainbowbrush]

Do you just ramble all the time?

[planet_rin]

I don't know. Was I rambling last time you talked to me?

[rainbowbrush]

You ramble a lot, but when you paint, you don't talk at all! It's weird.

[planet_rin]

That's because talking and painting at the same time is hard. How do you do it?

[rainbowbrush]

Nuh-uh. It's easy! Try it.

[planet_rin]

I'm not very good at multitasking.

[rainbowbrush]

You just gotta practice.

[planet_rin]

I already have to re-learn how to do basically everything. I don't know if I can change how I paint on top of all that.

Besides, it doesn't even work. I don't know what's missing.

[rainbowbrush]

Why not? It's fun! You gotta try all different kinds of painting!

Missing?

[planet_rin]

I'm trying to paint but it isn't working. I don't know why. Maybe it's something I forgot.

[rainbowbrush]

We all forgot everything when we woke up here. You can't forget talent though!

[planet_rin]

It's not that simple for me.