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[planet_rin]

I am pretty sure that now is a good time to not be outside the apartments so here I am. Don't know where big blue has shown up, but would rather not take chances. Mysterious mural project on hold.

[filtered to people who have had at least one conversation with Rin]
Congratulations. You get to listen to the extra-incoherent rambly bits, because I feel like it. Pretend that I am lying on a couch, and you are sitting on a chair next to it, frowning thoughtfully and taking notes and charging me huge amounts of money.

I don't know what I'm doing with my painting. It's like I'm trying to paint to get something that's inside of me out, but then I do it and I found out that there isn't anything inside me. I'm just full of holes, or something. Thought I should try painting to fill the holes, but I don't know how to do that. If I changed how I paint that much, I don't know if I'd be able to go back to the other way.

Will remembering change anything? Maybe it won't. Maybe it would just add more context for what I'm missing. Maybe I was always like this.

Got some charcoal, though. I think charcoal is OK, for some reason. Simpler.

Accordingly,
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If you are bored and talk to me, I will draw you. No charge, I am not a professional.

[filtered to Tohsaka]

Oh, almost forgot. Remembered eighteenth birthday. Nineteen next month. I win.

Comments

[gandere]

[ Well, may as well entertain her. This may be the quietest Rin Tohsaka's been in a long, long time. ]

[planet_rin]

[Rin picks up a pencil with her mouth (she's been branching out!) and gets to work, occasionally stopping to peer so closely at her work-in-progress that her face almost touches the paper.]

[This is taking a while.]

[gandere]

[ Why is she drawing with her mouth. Rin's just going to watch with a more curious look than one of annoyance, watching her with some interest. ]

[planet_rin]

[Tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock oh hey.]

Done.

[Final picture! It is quite good from a technical standpoint (especially for something drawn by holding pencil in mouth), but the overall impression of the piece is a bit oppressive, and Tohsaka looks pissed.]

[gandere]

I don't look like that ever.

[ Rin is in a perpetual state of 'pissed' every single moment she answers a call. How does she not see this? ]

It's alright I suppose besides that though.

[planet_rin]

I have never seen you smile.

[gandere]

I've smiled... Haven't I?

[ Now she's thinking back on all her time spent here. In fact, she can remember the only time she's smiled, and that makes her cheeks flare up rather quick. ]

S-Shut up! I have smiled here before!

[planet_rin]

Well, sure. I haven't been watching you 24 hours a day. That would be weird.

[gandere]

Well, you're already pretty weird. I wouldn't put it past you to continue to be weird when I'm not looking.

[planet_rin]

I have more important weird person things to do than stalk you.