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[planet_rin]

I am pretty sure that now is a good time to not be outside the apartments so here I am. Don't know where big blue has shown up, but would rather not take chances. Mysterious mural project on hold.

[filtered to people who have had at least one conversation with Rin]
Congratulations. You get to listen to the extra-incoherent rambly bits, because I feel like it. Pretend that I am lying on a couch, and you are sitting on a chair next to it, frowning thoughtfully and taking notes and charging me huge amounts of money.

I don't know what I'm doing with my painting. It's like I'm trying to paint to get something that's inside of me out, but then I do it and I found out that there isn't anything inside me. I'm just full of holes, or something. Thought I should try painting to fill the holes, but I don't know how to do that. If I changed how I paint that much, I don't know if I'd be able to go back to the other way.

Will remembering change anything? Maybe it won't. Maybe it would just add more context for what I'm missing. Maybe I was always like this.

Got some charcoal, though. I think charcoal is OK, for some reason. Simpler.

Accordingly,
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If you are bored and talk to me, I will draw you. No charge, I am not a professional.

[filtered to Tohsaka]

Oh, almost forgot. Remembered eighteenth birthday. Nineteen next month. I win.

Comments

[planet_rin]

It must be cool to always be right. You should do fortune telling.

[gandere]

I'll start with you.







I predict that you'll shut up.

[planet_rin]

Cool prediction. When do you think it will happen, Other Rin?

[gandere]

Soon.




Like right about now.

And damn it, I'm not 'Other Rin'!!

[planet_rin]

Why not? Apparently I came first.

[gandere]

Because it was decided already!

Plus, who can prove you really came first? You could have just made that up to try to make be the other Rin!

[planet_rin]

You know, there's no reason we couldn't both call each other Rin. When I talk to myself, I don't use my name, so it wouldn't be hard to tell who I'm talking about when I say "Rin."

Or maybe you talk to yourself a lot. That would make this idea awkward.

[gandere]

You don't find this idea weird at all? It's a pretty small place and for us both to be called Rin.. what if people start to call us by name? [ Hmph. ] This is bad. Very bad.

And I don't talk to myself too much!

[planet_rin]

You can be angry Rin and I can be confused Rin.

[gandere]

I can be Awesome Rin and you can be That Stupid Other Rin Who Isn't As Great As This Rin.

[planet_rin]

Too long.

[gandere]

Then you can be 'Too Lazy To Say My Name Fully Rin'.

[planet_rin]

But your name's easy. Mine's the one that keeps getting longer.

[gandere]

Because your suggestions prior have been lame.

[planet_rin]

I suddenly feel like drawing a portrait of you.

[gandere]

Is that a threat?

It's a pretty lame one.

[planet_rin]

No, that would be a terrible threat. Who would do that?

[gandere]

I thought you initially.

Besides, why would you make a portrait of someone who shares your name?

[planet_rin]

I've never really thought about the connection between names and portraits. I mainly want to draw you because you keep making this huge, drawable faces.

[gandere]

Huge... drawable faces? What does that even mean?

[ For example: the one she's currently displaying. ]

[planet_rin]

Hold still for a minute and I will demonstrate.

[gandere]

[ Well, may as well entertain her. This may be the quietest Rin Tohsaka's been in a long, long time. ]

[planet_rin]

[Rin picks up a pencil with her mouth (she's been branching out!) and gets to work, occasionally stopping to peer so closely at her work-in-progress that her face almost touches the paper.]

[This is taking a while.]

[gandere]

[ Why is she drawing with her mouth. Rin's just going to watch with a more curious look than one of annoyance, watching her with some interest. ]

[planet_rin]

[Tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock oh hey.]

Done.

[Final picture! It is quite good from a technical standpoint (especially for something drawn by holding pencil in mouth), but the overall impression of the piece is a bit oppressive, and Tohsaka looks pissed.]